As a new mama, I was completely oblivious about breastfeeding. I honestly thought it would come "natural" and we wouldn't have any issues. Let me tell you that was a complete and utter naive thought. I wouldn't say my breastfeeding journey at the beginning was challenging but we've definitely hit many obstacles along the way.
Calvin's latch was pretty solid at the beginning and I was definitely an over producer. I was able to save a lot of milk and get that stored in our deep freezer. I was so engorged from the beginning and was leaking a ton. My best friend bought me a silicone letdown catcher so I used that at every feeding on the opposite breast.
They all felt amazing but he preferred the two above the most. I would say try and get some small samples before buying the actual jars because it can get pretty expensive. I would lather these on after EACH feeding.
I stared longingly at the list of breast pumps available that my insurance would either fully cover or partially cover. I had no idea which one to get. I did extensive research and decided on a Spectra. Some things I looked for in a breast pump were: suction level, attachments (ease of replacements and price of replacement parts) and quietness. I liked the size of the Medela breast pumps but I heard they're a little louder so I went with a Spectra instead. When I was choosing it, they had a pink (S2) or blue (S1) breast pump. The only difference between those was the fact that the blue (S1) was portable so I didn't have to be plugged into the wall to pump. I chose to upgrade to that pump and pay an addition few dollars for convenience.
When I finally pumped at home it hurt so bad and I honestly made about 1oz on each breast. I eventually gave up and only used the silicone milk catcher. It wasn't until weeks later that my best friend came over and helped me with it. She watched and helped me figure out my fitting and realized my flange size was too large so it was pulling more of my areola. Our friendship definitely hit another level at that point- haha! So if you can, get fitted properly because this makes a HUGE difference!
Freeze the milkies
We have a deep freezer so we ended up freezing the milk. I bought plain rectangle 6oz milk bags and froze them flat. When I had 10 bags of frozen milk, I stored it in a gallon size ziploc. I was able to fit 10 bags of milk in each gallon size bag and stored it in our deep freezer.
What happened after 4 months
So what did i do to help?
I started tackling one room of our house a day to keep up with household chores. This worked out great for a few days until other things took priority. For example, I'll be cleaning the kitchen but then the towels have to get done so laundry gets started and that meant cleaning up our laundry room/mud room. Then I'll be spiraling around the house trying to get everything done again. Obviously I meant well and it just didn't work.
This year, my intention is to focus more on self-care. As a new mama, I need to give myself more grace and taking better care of my needs. The image to the left is a great way to focus on self care!
So as you reflect and set goals and expectations this year, refine your focus on what it is that you intend to achieve.
Message me and tell me what your New Year's intentions are!
It felt like a cloud was over me and I didn't know what to do
I knew something was wrong but I didn't want to believe it. My husband would try to do anything to cheer me up or give me a break but I would just shut down. My postpartum rage was at it's highest peak at this point. I missed talking to people... to real adults. I kept wondering if staying home for the year was a good idea and if I was the best fit to care for my own baby. My body started shutting down after several nights of no sleep. I started getting sick and this just made things worse.
My husband started praying over me and our family